This picture pretty much sums up how I felt yesterday...
Old.Don't worry - I didn't age half a century over night. This shot is from a production called The Typists I did when I was working on my Bachelor's degree in theatre.
See...you learn something new every day. I may be a certified nerd working on her Master's degree in communication, but I am also a certified thespian. Diploma and all. But back to my point...
I felt old today, and, to be honest, it's something I've grown accustomed to. I've mentioned before that I have fibromyalgia, and every now and then I encounter a pretty miserable flare up. It's difficult to explain to someone who doesn't have fibromyalgia exactly what this means, so "old" is the closest description I can think to use. I feel achy and tired and hurt down to the bones. So, old seems to fit.
I mention this to you for two reasons:
1) I didn't even want to go to class, let alone stand in front of a camera, so there are no outfit photos today. I will say that I had my beloved alma mater gracing a certain comfy item. I'll always be nostalgic for my days at SFA.
2) It is incredibly important for all of us to take care of ourselves.
I seem to go through these phases where I either am 100% dedicated to eating right, exercising, and just overall being good to my body, and then other times I give into not feeling well and completely slack. Recently, I made the conscious decision that I was going to make every effort possible to make it a lifestyle choice to treat my body well all the time. I haven't discussed that on here yet, but I thought today was appropriate.
It's the kind of days when I feel "old" that I feel like no matter what I do I'm never going to have the health I want. But although I may have no control over some of the things my body is forced to deal with, I do have control over other things.
I can control what I put into my body, how much exercise I get, and how well I stick to a healthy routine. There are people out there who recover from cancer and then go and run marathons! Our bodies are capable of more than we can imagine.
Even though I felt like lying in bed all day and isolating myself from the world, I didn't. I got up, got dressed, and faced the world. And I know I'll do the same thing tomorrow and every day after that until I'm incapable of doing so.
I tried to think of other posts I could write to make up for my lack of "visual entertainment," so to speak, but I decided that being sincere and honest with you is the best thing that I could give. We each have struggles in our lives, and fibromyalgia is mine.
If you're having a bad day, just know that all of us here in the blogging world have bad days too. It's easy to show our prettiest pictures and most stylish outfits, but it's sometimes difficult to expose the things we deal with in private. I hope by exposing a weakness of mine, you can find your inner strength.
I may feel like a little old lady every now and then, but I am young, vibrant, and full of life, and no illness will ever take that away.